Dear younger me,
Sometimes people won't be nice to you. That's ok, it's not your fault and it will get better. The spots will mostly go and you won't grow anymore once you start secondary school. Also your hair will start letting you dye it when you are around 18, however it won't hold any of the colours that you really like for more than about 8 washes. The awkwardness that you have will turn into what you now consider a kind of charm. It will help people to relax around you and make others feel safer with you near them. You will meet a lovely lady who will tell you that your skin has a beautiful texture and even years later it will make you smile when you are feeling a little down. Your body will change over time. Yes you may have developed early but you will come to love your body. It has carried you through countries, to experience countless things and the view the most beautiful of views. You have used it to help young children learn a second language, you have helped to communicate with people when you both have no understanding of the other's language and you have been able to offer help to those who need it. It will also help to let you know when you should slow down, remind you to take a pause every once in a while and reward you for fueling it with good wholesome food, which you will learn to cook a lot of. You will become a teacher (believe it or not) You will meet a guy who you will travel to the other side of the world with. You will find a true passion in your life and feel that you have just lucked into it. You will find joy in the smallest triumphs of your students and learn so much from them and their views on the world. You will better yourself.. Not only educationally (you still haven't gotten a degree but you are still doing ok) but mentally, spiritually and emotionally. You will be able to help people climb out of their worst situations. You will help guide others to become better at a job that you love and that they will also come to love. You will help people to become more patient with others. You help people to transition to living far away from every thing that they know. You will face tough times, things will be difficult. Luckily you have a sense of reason and a sharp sarcastic tongue to get you through. Later you will have to leave a life that you have built through no choice or fault of your own. But you are strong. Much stronger than you currently have any idea of. Although it doesn't seem like it (during any of these times) you have a team of people around you (who you do deserve, however much you think you may not) (and who love you dearly, just as much as you love them). You will learn how to take others into account (although decision making will never really be your strength), you will learn just to breathe and take in what is surrounding you and you will learn to let go of negative actions so they don't keep hold of you. Through this all you will be happy. Maybe not all of the time, but you will always be one of the first to smile (often when you shouldn't but emotions are gross), one of the first to offer a grin to someone who needs one or a proper teeth that you still don't really like smile to someone whose eye you catch. You will realise that having regrets is pointless (although your head will like to play back conversations and actions and make you improve upon them). You will meet someone. They will show what love is. They will accept you completely and you will them. You will communicate. You will support and challenge each other. You will share laughter and tears and travel the world making memories and taking nothing but photos. Life will be worth it for you. I promise. Despite everything that it will through at you, you will emerge happy (and for the most part healthy). You are enough. You are not alone. You are ok.
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