So you hear all these people saying about how you have to take care of what is on the inside before you take care of what is on the outside, what you eat, when you exercise etc
The thing is this is also true of your mind. I know this from personal experience. And I've paid the price for it too. I still do to be fair. When your mind is in such a way that you can't focus on anything other than surviving the next five minutes, plus making sure you have a plan a, b, c and d just in case whilst also imaging the worst case scenario for everyone around you and making sure that they are all ok because that means you will be ok, it doesn't leave much of you left to make sure that your body is working properly. This results in having a bunch of sicknesses happening all at one time. Which is a plus because at least it is all in one go, but also happens whenever you slow down just a little. In the past year I have had: chest infections, kidney infections and problems with my immune system. I've also been deficient in a bunch of vitamins that are essential. I also get really bad breakouts as well as really dry skin. Amongst over things. While I try my best to take care of myself (I take multi vitamins and vitamin C everyday, along with a 'tonic' tablet twice a day, it always seems like a defeat when this happens. Because if I'm doing everything that I should be then why do I get sick when I slow down? The thing I have slowly come to realise is that getting better is not a case of taking a few pills and a bit of therapy. It's continual, It take a load of work, sometimes you don't even realise that you are working just as hard as you are. And that's ok. In order for my mind and my body to be in balance there has to be work. And because so much of my energy is used up by my mind it leaves less for my body to run on. The key to this is patience. Every day I take my tablets (happy pills and all), I make sure I eat properly (right now I'm on one solid meal a day and a smoothie full of fruity goodness) and I continue working on becoming friends again with the illogical side of my brain. In no way am I saying that I have got it all figured out. Not in the slightest. I'm fully aware my brain will never be what it was before. And that's ok too. I might have to take the happy pills forever. And that's ok too. I do what I can with the tools I already have and slowly learn to use those tools in more ways. And when I get all the sickness in one go there isn't too much else I can do other than ride it out. With lots of snacks, because snacks make everything better. You can do it too. You are enough. You are not alone. You are ok.
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